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I know this much to be true….

November 25, 2010

Today, on Thanksgiving, I am grateful and thankful for so many things….From little to big and all in between…From the very depths of my chubby little heart, I am thankful for:

1. Ryan. I cannot describe in enough words how much this man means to me. He has the ability to piss me off in 2 seconds flat and he has the ability to make my heart stop with the color of his eyes and the beauty in his smile. I love him. I love his face. I love his heart. I am thankful he puts up with my crazy ass mood swings, my accident prone ability to get hurt at least on a weekly, if not, daily basis, my OCD need for cleanliness and all my other quirky personality traits. He is the father I always imagined him being, and I hope one day Maddox and Cameron will realize how blessed they were to have him as their father.  I am grateful that he understands my background, my culture, and never asks or expects for more. He is simply everything I need and I wish Thanksgiving was everyday so that I could reflect and appreciate him more. In a word he is Genuine. I couldn’t describe him any other way.

2. Cameron’s health. Who knew this chubby, fearless, naughty baby was born with a serious heart condition and had heart surgery at the tiny age of 3 days old? He is our walking miracle. He is our answered prayers personified.  He is healthy. We went from weekly visits to the cardiologist, to monthly, to quarterly, and now we are at 6 month visits. For us, this is huge. For us, we thank Dr. Sperazza in Oklahoma City, for repairing his valve when we arrived that night at Children’s Hospital and Cameron was basically comatose, and to God for allowing him not to have the surgeries they warned us of him having throughout his childhood.  He is healthy, happy, fearless and strong and I am so very thankful, every single day.

3. Maddox. He is everything good, sweet and kind. He is sensitive, he is smart, he is athletic, he is beautiful. He has his father’s eyes and my olive complexion and I know when he is in his teens, I will have my hands full. He is growing like a weed and I can’t believe he is already in school, but he will always be my baby.

4. My family. My mom who Cameron asks for on a daily basis. She is the grandmother she never had, the grandmother I never had, and the grandmother I want my kids to have. My father, who is starting to come around more.  He’s always been there when we wanted or needed something, but maybe just maybe, he is starting to realize 35 years later that he can give more, by just simply being there. It’s not perfect, it’s not even really great, but its progress and that’s more than I’ve seen in my lifetime, so I’m thankful. My in-laws who moved into town and are closer to the boys and us and are there for us when we need them. I’m so very thankful for my family.

5. Our careers/finances. We both survived being laid off, starting new jobs, starting a new business, and are succeeding. The finances could always be better. But it could have been a lot worse and it wasn’t. We are so grateful and thankful.

6. Our health. We are healthy. I may be clumsy, I may be accident prone, I may be on antibiotics for the rest of the year, but we are healthy.

7. My friends. I may not see them as much as I like, even if it’s once a year. But to my friend who reads this blog from her deer stand, and texts me to tell me how much my pain and suffering delights her and I text back that Bambi is a survivor and will not die today, I am thankful. They make me see my world from a different perspective, they are there for me, and they know I will do anything for them as well…To all I call friend, I am grateful and thankful to you.

8. Dr. Pepper, chocolate, and bread. I love you. I crave you. I miss you when I try to quit you. I am so grateful to the makers of you. My ass and thighs may disagree, but I do not. I am thankful for your yumminess and I think your diet families should slowly go extinct…

9. Sirius radio. You make my time in the car and at the store fly by with your non-stop, commercial-free music that takes me back in time.

10. The internet. I can shop, blog, research, and find the inspiration that I need at just the click of a button.

There is literally hundreds more little things I am grateful for that I can blog on and on about, but I am sure you understand where I am going with this. Today, my stuffing wasn’t perfect, the sweet potato casserole was, the crescent rolls burnt, and the hashbrown casserole was not as great as the version Ryan first tried, but I am thankful we had the food to eat, the family to eat it with and the friend to share it with. Today is almost over but the thoughts of everything I am thankful are ever-present and I hope to live a life where I am not blinded by the kindness of strangers, or the importance in the little things. I pray that everyday begins and ends with a prayer of thanks for all that I have, and I hope I reflect it, because I know I don’t always do that, and for that I apologize. Thanksgiving is much more than the best turkey recipe, best apple pie, best turkey induced nap, it’s a day of reflecting on all that we should be thankful for, and I wish Thanksgiving came around more than just once a year.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. November 25, 2010 11:59 PM

    What? You’re not grateful for Annie introducing us? Pffft.


  2. steph permalink
    November 26, 2010 12:29 PM

    Bahar you are a wonderful, unique person. I am thankful that we met way back when and have managed to stay friends ever since. Even if we go two months without talking, we pick up right where we left off. Yes bambi may have gotten away last night, but today is a new day and i will send u many pics very soon. They will include everything from a picture of the poor defenceless corpse to the skinning and butchering process…just u wait!


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